Well it's been a while since I was here. Again I found it hard to write these last few weeks. They have been hard. Harder than the weeks before for some reason. I ache, and grief is my new best friend. It follows me in my every step and i ache with every breath that I take. My poor boy :( I am starting to feel the anger now....
Revelstoke buried another son today. The sadness in this town is immeasurable. My heart and soul relives the sadness felt on August 4th (the day we all found out), now 2 months passed. Olindo Frank Brunetti, my son's friend, has now joined him in a place so lucky to have them. Although I did not know Frankie, I saw his beautiful face many times around town. And his name was often spoken by Daniel, they meant a lot to each other. I am standing by watching all the people that meant the most to Daniel suffer. I can not explain the feeling. Tonight, as I know his friends are mourning another great loss, I can not help but weep at the fact that tonight, I should be holding my sons head up, wiping his tears and telling him that everything will be alright again....someday. What a long and tearful journey we all have ahead of us. Sometimes I don't want to even walk it. It would be easier to sit in one spot and let it consume me. But at home I have, two more beautiful children to care for, to be strong for....and I don't know how I am doing it, but I am.
I have so much to say and yet nothing that will help. To all of those who love Neil Martin, to those who love Jake Gericke, to the ones who love Frankie Brunetti, and of course to all of you who love my Daniel....may peace find us all....someday ....soon....
